What am I seeking?
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So what is it really that I'm seeking? I've been wondering that for a long time. If I'm honest with myself, I think this is part of the reason why I sought out Constantyne. I must have some hope that by going back in the past to my early days, maybe I'll hit upon some inspiration. Though I can't say for sure how much this will really help. Even back then, I was always seeking. However, I did feel more hopeful about the future during my teenage years. I felt that I was on a quest and that eventually I would find the right path. I need to tap into that hope again. Constantyne and others in Hallowed Crusaders were pretty much my best friends during those years. I spent so much time with them. They helped me escape the real world where I basically had no one to turn to. My mother and father were loving parents and good providers, but they weren't friends at all. I hardly spoke with them about my feelings. It was the same with my brother and sister. I got along fine