Lost Whyspers

Longer I stop writing, the harder it is to get back into it Thought about writing something in long form, but going to stick with this bullet journal for the time being Reading Things That Matter lately Really loved reading Tress of the Emerald Sea recently Written by Brandon Sanderson and part of the Cosmere Started playing Marvel SNAP Cool to play in short bursts Also started playing Othercide Cool theme and atmosphere Finished with Project CT recently

Going way too long without writing Wanted to write out something long about recent thoughts Settled on doing a bullet list for now Still need to get around to reading comments on my blog Still need to get around to logging into Discord again Still need to get around to communicating with friends Still need to write Still have so much I want to read Currently reading  Tress of the Emerald Sea  by Brandon Sanderson Also started reading  Things That Matter: Overcoming Distraction to Pursue a More Meaningful Life  by Joshua Becker Watching some Classroom of the Elite  anime recently So many thoughts in my head

Awww man, just got news that something I thought I was done with 3 years ago is coming back to trouble me again Now more troublesome due to being in the US Oh well, I guess I just have to deal with it Ups and downs as usual Haven't felt like coming here to write Yet so many things I wish I had written about I took some notes of things Continuing to read Cytonic Listened to dramatized audiobook of Emperor's Soul , which I previously read Felt as amazing as it was reading it the first time Feel like I'll probably listen to it again in the future Started listening to dramatized audiobook of White Sand Another one by Brandon Sanderson Originally just a graphic novel (comic book) Don't enjoy reading those Thrilled to find out there was an audiobook instead

First post of the year Mind is such a clutter Still trying to figure out the best way to sort through everything Keep needing to force myself to take things a piece at a time Finished watching Rings of Power a few days ago Last episode of the season felt rushed Overall I still enjoyed the series Probably will watch season 2 when that comes out Guitar learning has improved after switching to new tutorial videos Started playing Guild Wars 2 Huge install Just trying it out since I heard positive things about this MMO Not sure that I'll continue Find myself getting bored easily with games now Maybe not bored exactly, but just questioning whether they are worth playing Still avoiding a number of social interactions Though did successfully navigate a difficult conversation yesterday

Watched movie Everything Everywhere All At Once Still trying to process what it means to me Particularly liked a part where one character talked about how others might see him as weak However he uses kindness and positivity as his way to fight against despair in the universe Started playing Diablo 3 again a little Christmas weekend went okay

I finally got around to adding an AI bot called Midjourney to my private Discord server and setting it up. I tested it with the prompt "fate saber celebrating christmas" and got the above image after a couple upscales. I'm looking forward to testing out some other images. 🙂

Tired Don't feel like doing much Must move forward though Finished watching Rings of Power S01E07 Also watched couple episodes of Brandon Sanderson discussing the TV series with someone Interesting to listen to their perspectives Still enjoying the series overall One more episode to go Feel like I keep forgetting things Took care of couple things I'd forgotten to do earlier

Moving forward Prepared some things for future progress Brainstorming further ideas Time passing so quickly Need to stay focused and not go off on too many tangents at once Watched episode 6 of Rings of Power Enjoying this series I've read people criticize how it departs from Tolkien's actual lore Still enjoying it and not thinking too much about that Need to figure out audiobooks to listen to Even re-listening to some would be good Listening to Making Sense podcast Making Sense #291: Where is Happiness? Buddhism term "metta" translates to "loving kindness" Buddhism term "mudita" translates to "sympathetic joy"

Regretted getting up this morning Wasn't looking forward to a couple tasks for the day However they ended up going more smoothly than expected Yesterday evening had some troublesome happenings Trying to take them in stride though Everything is for a purpose I will look towards my quest Considering offering to backup game on 17th Shard LG 90 game didn't list any pinch-hitters Looks like a large player list with many new people Could see that there might be need for backup Game on FoL filling slowly Started listening again to song Rise Up by Beyonce Beyonce - Rise Up (Epic Movie Clip HD) - YouTube Use to love listening to this 🙂 Inspires me to strive to inspire others, especially children Movie Epic was really good too Constant struggle not simply letting myself slide into despair Sometimes just so tired of fighting But isn't the struggle what makes us feel life? I can understand that conceptually, but still want to give up sometimes I see more and more that habits and ri...

I'm such a wimp at fencing 😔 I'm way too cautious Need to work on getting more aggressive This is a good example of how I am at life in general Need to be less uncertain Need to stop overthinking Still loving Rings of Power J is absolutely crazy! She'll switch between emotions so suddenly Start complaining fervently about some small matter Start complaining about something that she caused Once she starts complaining about one matter, she'll bring in all past matters again Feel like I have more to get off my mind, but can't think of it now 🙂

Rings of Power is really good so far Mindmapped the major "obstacles" in my life Not quite so bad when viewed in perspective Helps by watching shows and hearing stories, both real life and fantasy, about much worse things people could be going through Guy on Fiverr started working again on database search for FoL archive Hopefully can get done soon Not sure if Orange still has an event planned

Two steps forward, one step back Or sometimes two steps back, one step forward? 🙂 Should I play Diablo 3 again? Or even Diablo Immortal? Game was updated again Thinking about watching Rings of Power series Read about how it portrays Elves Shows the tension between their immortality and dealing with other races My niece told me something important that she wanted kept secret from her mom

Well, an interesting surprise occurred. I'm now a fencer! 🙂 It all started with signing up my niece for a local fencing class. She was very interested in joining when we found out from someone that classes were available. Later on, I considered that perhaps I should have joined too since I was going to be taking her anyway and waiting around. However, when I checked, the classes were full. During the 1st session while I was sitting around and watching my niece, a lady started chatting with me. She was apparently a fencing student in another class and had been doing it for two years. She was very friendly and talkative. She asked me why I didn't join my niece, so I told her about how I had thought about it, but the class was full. Well, at the beginning of the 2nd session, the coach asked me if I wanted to hop in and join the class. I was shocked, and the other lady said she had a big mouth. I guess she had talked with the coach and got me into the class. 🙂 Even though I was n...

Things are actually pretty good today, but just feeling a little depressed? Not sure what to do with myself Feeling kind of anti-social still What's going on? What's the best thing to do now to move forward? Been thinking a lot about needing to focus on the big picture Need to discover what life is asking of me Need to move forward on this even if everything else gets in the way New life ahead? How will it feel? Can I make a good start of it? Started reading Skyward by Brandon Sanderson Already caught me in the prologue Made the assumption this would simply be a story about the daughter of a hero pilot who dies defending their home and now has to live up to his reputation Surprised by the actual premise Watched a little of TL and friends playing Betrayal at House on the Hill on Twitch Still need to reply to Shade Not sure why I'm having trouble with that Playing Lost Ark still Feels kind of lonely in the game Not seeing any sort of chat at all

Feeling somewhat like my turtle (anti-social) mode now Nothing particularly bad, just lots of inputs or things to think about Feels important to make some good choices on direction now Felt like Neo in the Matrix today Where he was returning to the Matrix for the first time after being freed He was riding in the car and looking at various places around town Mentioned that he use to eat at a particular restaurant Said something about how the noodles taste good there Feel like that as I go around the city here in Taiwan Feel like this isn't real anymore I'm just waiting to return to the "real world" of the US Like I've been living in the Matrix this whole time Started playing Lost Ark recently Playing for short periods here and there Kind of fun, but don't feel fully engaged yet Maybe because I can't fully invest much time in it? Playing on same server as Shade, but haven't told him yet Originally started as Gunslinger, but switched to Glaivier

You have to assemble your life yourself, action by action. — Marcus Aurelius Chatting with Miach a bit again She was having trouble with her email Remembering TSO (The Shadow Order) guild from War of Genesis Preparing for a trip Continuing to watch Witcher season 2 Finished through episode 5 Getting quite interesting Can't concentrate much today

Nice chat with Miach today She's very sweet Probably should chat with her more She watches Shade stream games Not sure how I'm feeling Sometimes feel better and more hopeful But then that easily gets smothered by certain people and events How can I live more like the Stoics? Watched episodes 1 and 2 of Witcher season 2 Liking it a lot so far Love Ciri and Geralt Not sure how I feel about Yennefer this time around

Your principles can't be extinguished unless you snuff out the thoughts that feed them, for it's continually in your power to reignite new ones... It's possible to start living again! See things anew as you once did — that is how to restart life! — Marcus Aurelius Trip coming up next week Orange's invitational FM game on FoL coming up soon as well Helping to host Starting to use PrayerMate app again Still have prayers and quotes from before Some very inspirational, like the one above from Marcus Aurelius Feel like I need to use this daily again Slowed down in reading lately Need to pick back up on that Wondering about Constantyne Wondering about Vulgard Watched a little of season 2 of Witcher as preview Looks like it will be very interesting again Read that season 3 in the works

Finished reading The Sword of Kaigen Rated 4/5 stars I like all the "real life" themes presented in this story. A lot of coming to terms with what we didn't previously know. Things that were misunderstood. And learning acceptance of other people and ourselves. I was kind of annoyed by the unnecessary usage of special names for time durations like minutes, hours, and such. It just added unnecessary confusion. I understand how a fantasy or sci-fi writer does this to make the world more obviously foreign. And maybe to specifically show that the time scales are slightly different on this other world. But it just comes across as annoying. I was sad to read in the afterword that the author doesn't plan to continue with this series anytime soon. It seems like this could really be a cool world to explore. Considering what to read next Maybe next Classroom of the Elite Also should maybe focus on continuing with non-fiction book already started Joining Seth's game on FoL Fe...

Listening to post-rock again to soothe myself while walking SBPC game on FoL was a success Some people seemed genuinely interested in the results Nice to see talk about old times People got to learn about early history of site DatBird was nice to specifically compliment my hosting Orange asked me to be one of the co-hosts for his upcoming invitational again He said he liked how well I handled the other one I said that I probably could Hopefully my schedule will work out He said "you're awesome, genuinely" 🙂 That was especially nice coming from him Thinking about joining Osie's game on FoL Seems kind of like a mini-mash Might not require too much investment, which I wouldn't have time for Though could have tons of posts Almost done reading The Sword of Kaigen Found time to meditate today Really need to do this more often Sometimes try at night, but usually feel too sleepy Scruffy contacted me today Should contact Miach soon