Lost Whyspers

This morning I received some unexpected bad news concerning my family. I'm not going to get into much detail to protect my family's privacy, but basically a relative passed away. I'm not sure yet what's going to happen. I was just getting motivated for activity this morning, but then this drained the life out of me. I'm working on a quick list of priorities for the day and the week. I might need to let some things slide for now.

Oh, how it feels like there's always complications that arise from any action or decision I make. It just makes me hesitant again to do anything. I just want to push it all away. So now with the disbanding of Mistborn, I have issues with a couple members claiming they didn't receive diamonds from the final gift. There is one member in particular who is persistent in saying that he didn't get the diamonds. I can't help being suspicious of him. I have been for awhile, and I wonder if he's taking a final opportunity to get extra diamonds. Additionally, I think other Mistborn members who didn't migrate to Discord originally have now heard about my announcement and are trying to join the Discord server finally. I suppose I'll need to go back to Messenger or Facebook to respond. I've also been wondering if I need to leave open a final chat for Mistborn members just in case. I will keep the Discord server for awhile at least. I'm wondering about the Faceboo...

  Well, it is done. I actually followed through and posted the announcement to disband the Mistborn Clan. I had a moment of clarity where I saw that it had to happen this way. @Mistborn I’ve been reluctant to do this, but I’ve finally come to the conclusion that it must be done. I am going to officially disband Mistborn for all practical purposes. You can still use the logo and call yourself Mistborn if you’d like. However, there will no longer be any tournaments or events planned . The months have been dragging by and I don’t see the chance for tournaments to be started again. I have many other things going on in my life and won’t have much time. I haven’t seen that anyone else can really handle managing everything for the tournaments. So I think it would be best to just let you all know that they won’t be happening. Thank you to those who came over to Discord and tried to help this start up. I am sad, as I’m sure you are as well, but I think this is for the best. Let’s just che...

I will likely disband the Mistborn Clan for Mobile Legends soon. I think it will be for the best. I had thought about keeping it around just in case, but I think it is inevitable that there will no longer be tournaments nor events. I really don't have the time nor motivation to keep going. And I don't think I'll be getting any help along the way. I will probably give out Mistborn Points or just diamonds directly when I give the official announcement. I'm not sure if I will require that people make a last effort to visit the Discord server or just send to everyone that's been around before. Hmmm, I will consider for at least a day what to do. But I can't drag this on too much longer.

  Using this profile pic of Kuroyukihime in preparation for the  Watch Your Mouth!: Sophomore Year game at Forum of Lies .

  I've been avoiding so much for awhile now. Avoiding replying to people in many parts of my life. I've been depressed and just feel like cutting off all sorts of input to simplify my life. But this avoidance is not good. Oh, I'm such a horrible person sometimes. It's just that many times I am just not sure what's the best thing to say or do, so I just avoid doing anything and hope the problem goes away. And sometimes it actually does resolve itself. But other times my guilt just keeps building up until it becomes more difficult to finally do anything at all. What do I say to a friend who I haven't said anything to for months and months? I can't just say I've been busy. Everyone gets busy, but you should still keep in touch. When I was young, my family moved around a lot and I never kept in touch with old friends. So I was use to building up new lives every few years. But now the Internet makes it easier for people to keep in touch, yet I tend to not do ...