Lost Whyspers

Words are so limiting Or at least my ability with words are so limiting I feel like I can only get a small percentage of what I'm thinking down into words I feel like the words limit what I'm trying to say This is frustrating and makes me not even want to try However I know that's not a good solution Better solution would be to improve my writing Arguing with people can be so frustrating Sometimes it is so obvious that the other person isn't even considering logic of arguments So then is there a point to continue? How do I know when to keep fighting and when to just let it go? I have a personal bias towards avoiding conflict So then I worry that I'm convincing myself to let things go that I shouldn't But then I also can't help feeling that it's right to only get into conflicts that are necessary Reminds me of parts of Stormlight Archive Character and his father have opposing viewpoints on this

Finished reading Rhythm of War Fantastic book Ended up highlighting lots of passages just for the way various philosophical/moral ideas are expressed Considering reading Warbreaker next Same universe (Cosmere) Supposedly includes certain characters from Rhythm of War How long has it been since I've played FM? Feels like a long time, though I think only couple weeks Not ready yet to return Sounds like Senate guild for SINoALICE may not last much longer Heard that guild leaders getting a bit burned out with it Hope they feel renewed later

Finally reached gold league for King of Tokyo on BGA Thought I'd be stuck at silver forever Kept losing any points I gained Finally had a winning streak Almost done with Rhythm of War 94% done Amazing! Wow, found a much quicker method to do a task Feel stupid for wasting time earlier But feel clever for trying something out Now things can move along more easily May be able to complete it this weekend

Currently 80% done with Rhythm of War Story touches a lot on responsibility With more power comes more responsibility Gods and heroes bear much responsibility Do I want that? Did I escape from that? But what else is there? Responsibility gives meaning Today is national holiday in Taiwan Observance of Taiwan's birthday yesterday Cooled down a lot today Finally feeling like autumn Think there's typhoon passing by to south Artwork above from Chubymi

Just finished S03E17 of Sword Art Online Mad17 game on FoL needing couple replacements so early Replacement list has 6 people Seems like people aren't accepting though Looks like WWA did take one spot Not sure if I'll be needed, but I'm still on break Currently 71% done with Rhythm of War Listening to more songs and music artists I previously liked Belinda Carlisle Two Steps From Hell Downloaded couple other anime movies recommended by Scruffy Violet Evergarden: The Movie (2020) Maquia: When The Promised Flower Blooms (2018) King of Tokyo finally out of beta on BGA

Oh, I had some thoughts this morning that I wanted to note, but now I forgot 😔 Maybe something to do with distractions Or with temporary lack of distractions that leave a void Need to fill that void with something good Updated my music playlist Want to continue to do that weekly Still reading Rhythm of War So so good So much to think about Tempted to join Forum Mafia game on new site Paradox Interactive Forums Perhaps I should stick with my break though Also don't like how the site doesn't allow custom avatars 🙂 Found some nice artwork from artist named Chubymi Seen a few of her pieces before

FoL announcement about archiving Explained uncertainty about what company that bought ToL will do with forums People asked to help with archiving forum threads I contacted someone on Fiverr about mirroring the forum Seemed very knowledgeable and explained things well He started download process last night and said it's going well Waiting to hear back from him later today Also discussed with him about the FBR tool Couple members of Senate asked about piloting my SINoALICE account My usual policy is not to allow that I don't like to sell or lend my accounts However I'm currently considering whether to allow it in this situation Not sure how I feel about game accounts anymore Perhaps I shouldn't let them go to waste? “I want control,” she said, opening her eyes. “Not like a king or anything. I just want to be able to control it, a little. My life. I don’t want to get shoved around, by people or by fate or whatever. I just ... I want it to be me who chooses.” ― Lift in  ...

About halfway done with Rhythm of War Excellent series that continually impresses me Reading helps me feel more alive Going to experiment with tracking Forum Mafia info in OneNote Probably use section for each game Also sections for general info on wolf and town tells Maybe section for info on players? I think OneNote allows tagging, which should be useful for cross referencing I've heard searching in OneNote is fairly good Idea based on discussions with Askthepizzaguy Also from reading his article on his SkyNet Listening to podcasts on Stoicism

Watched episode S03E14 of Sword Art Online Temporarily put series on hold awhile ago Series continues to inspire me Want to continue watching Integrity Knights are interesting concept Make me think of Radiant Knights in Stormlight series Knights in general still fascinate me Probably for the concept of holding to an ideal Also for often being associated with following a quest Feel slightly better today Read about situation where someone is suspected of cheating in the Multiball game on MU Bowser was accusing the person I vigged N2 Apparently that person and maybe also his brother has a history of cheating Bowser thinks the red mafia team was robbed because of the cheating

So badly need to get back in touch with some friends Need to maybe reply to posts or just check up on people Avoiding this? Probably because I don't want to rock the boat in any way Things are somewhat calm But I do need to keep in contact with people, both online and IRL Big part of Stormlight series is how we need people to keep us on track Feel lost again Think I need to focus on future purpose, my quest Also on small steps, easy things to accomplish for now Feel so lazy Can't get myself to keep up consistently with good habits Keep going up and down with Chinese practice Same with writing Yesterday I stopped myself from playing new game Thought about playing an old MMO called Ultima Online Read about experiences of people who played before and still play Allowed myself to research servers and install the game Patching took very long time Went as far as creating a character Then decided I know I wouldn't want to continue playing Realize that I need to allow myself to tr...

Tired today, which is making me slightly depressed? Making it difficult to want to do anything much At least check lists still help Got some stuff done over weekend because of check lists Reading really does help Artwork helps as well Piece above is from Nixeu Perhaps I should just read a lot today? Pleasant discussion on MU Discord about Brandon Sanderson books Kind of nice intersection between 2 things I like Maybe I need to participate in more discussions like these?

I felt like switching my profile pic again. Going with a red head this time. 😀 Probably because I've been reading about Shallan in Rhythm of War . This is a 3D rendering by artist Yuditya Afandi of a character named Faye created by artist Ross Tran .

Finished reading Dawnshard Rated it 5 stars Awesome shorter novel Love the character Rysn Continuing with Rhythm of War Replaced into Warrior Cats game on FoL

Need to get back to basics with bullet journaling Wanted to write more about things I read or listened to recently Finished reading Oathbringer Rated it 5 stars Highlighted so much in book Loved all the characters and their situations Felt connected in various ways Continuing with next book Dawnshard Barely playing mobile games recently Doing minimum to keep up with SINoALICE and Arknights Tempted to play Mobile Legends again

Told Constantyne how chatting with him is complicated Not sure exactly how to explain what I mean by that He replied wondering how it's complicated Not sure how to reply back Still thinking about it Partly to do with our separate lives now Partly to do with our past Partly to do with how we aren't involved in a game together now Partly to do with the topics on world affairs that tend to come up between us Again, not sure what I mean to say 🙂 Haven't played Alchemy Stars again yet Still do want to play Feel like waiting for better time when I can relax and play Maybe too many other things now Chatting with Miach was nice She helped me through a bit Suggested I talk with professional about my anxiety I had considered seeking an online therapist I loathe J! 🤯 Still want to write about the many things I relate to in Oathbringer Wondering if Vulgard still reads my blog once in a while

It's D1 for the Community FM 3 game at FoL . I posted a single message so far, but that's it. It was kind of a slower time in the thread and only a few people around. No one really took notice of me. WindwardAway did like my post. She does that often, and it feels nice. Anyway, I did go through posts today and start to note down reads. I've been using the percentages and then giving plus or minus percentages based on various things I see. I've been trying to keep short notes on how much and for what I'm adjusting a percentage. This will be good for me to do in the long run. I'm preparing to post something about what I've done so far, but for some reason I feel nervous about checking the thread again. I just hate how some people jump on others for almost anything. I know I shouldn't let it bother me anymore, but it still does. Maybe I'll never get completely use to it. I'm this way about any type of confrontation in general. I can be tough at time...

Feel better today Special day with someone special Jane had DM'd me yesterday about finishing up the FBR tool soon They would be doing testing soon I had thought about contacting them recently I need to work on upgrades soon Reading novels does help me a lot Still organizing WLOP artwork from Patreon

I just noticed that I forgot to publish the draft posts I did for the LG75: Alethi Politics  game at  17th Shard  that finished up a couple months ago. I was an Elim and the Villagers won. I didn't really follow much after I was executed. LG75 D1 LG75 D2 LG75 D3 LG75 N3 I accidentally opened the draft for the last one before publishing it, so it updated the date to today. I set it back to around the correct time.

I just found out today that my older niece has read the first book of Mistborn already! I had bought the traditional Chinese edition of the trilogy set for her a couple years ago for Christmas because I was sure she'd like the series. Especially since it has a strong heroine for the main character. She had been excited about the storyline when I described it to her. However, when she saw the actual books, she was shocked at how huge they looked and didn't want to read them. I was definitely disappointed, but I know with her personality that there's no use trying to push her to try. I was hoping that someday she'd eventually take a look. Today she was asking me about the e-book I was reading on my phone, which happened to be Oathbringer . I told her that it was a series by the same author ( Brandon Sanderson ) as the books I'd gotten for her before. That's when she told me she'd read the first book. I was quite surprised and delighted. 🙂 It sounded like she...

Crazy busy and feel bad about not posting Couple deaths in Forum Battle Royale POG 2+2 anniversary game started Didn't join since barely enough time already Feel bad, but also relieved Still reading Oathbringer Sooo much good stuff I wish I could write about more Things about oaths and passion and such Doing the right thing Sometimes doing what is necessary even if morally questionable Grand Colo coming up in SINoALICE Re:ZERO collab also Still want to watch season 2