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Feel like my head might explode Way too many inputs at the moment Really needed to just write this Really want to write more Trying to stay calm throughout Lots of rain recently Reading Classroom of the Elite Vol. 3 Good lessons

Organizing bit by bit WindwardAway sent me DM asking if I was interested in joining Osie's game on FoL First of all, I was pleasantly surprised to get the message from WWA Not sure what prompted her to ask She's not a co-host for the game It's wonderful when people reach out like this Previously I decided not to join because a game like this will be difficult to keep up with Now I'm considering again She said she won't try hard for the 1st day or 2 I probably wouldn't be able to do much for 1st day or 2 since it starts on the Tomb Sweeping Festival 4-day weekend Also talked about Magnus' RP game on FoL Also want to join that, but not sure I could focus on it Feel like I'd be disappointed and possibly frustrated Started reading Thinking in Bets again from where I'd paused

I wish so much that I could write more freely. That I would be held back so much from writing what's on my mind. I've been considering what impedes me. I'm pretty sure a part is simply that I don't feel confident. I don't know whether my words will be considered seriously. Or they may be misinterpreted. Or that I will look silly for the ideas I present. Another aspect is somewhat related but a slightly different focus. I feel so strongly that I can't get into words all my true thoughts. And this annoys me. I have an idea in my mind and think that there's no way I can get it completely into words. No matter how hard I might try. So then it feels almost a disservice to even try. That I'm making an inferior version of the idea by putting it into words. I know this is all silly. People realize that words don't necessarily convey everything but that a person still needs to try. And I also realize that this improves over time with practice. The more I writ

Finished reading The Sword of Kaigen Rated 4/5 stars I like all the "real life" themes presented in this story. A lot of coming to terms with what we didn't previously know. Things that were misunderstood. And learning acceptance of other people and ourselves. I was kind of annoyed by the unnecessary usage of special names for time durations like minutes, hours, and such. It just added unnecessary confusion. I understand how a fantasy or sci-fi writer does this to make the world more obviously foreign. And maybe to specifically show that the time scales are slightly different on this other world. But it just comes across as annoying. I was sad to read in the afterword that the author doesn't plan to continue with this series anytime soon. It seems like this could really be a cool world to explore. Considering what to read next Maybe next Classroom of the Elite Also should maybe focus on continuing with non-fiction book already started Joining Seth's game on FoL Fe

Listening to post-rock again to soothe myself while walking SBPC game on FoL was a success Some people seemed genuinely interested in the results Nice to see talk about old times People got to learn about early history of site DatBird was nice to specifically compliment my hosting Orange asked me to be one of the co-hosts for his upcoming invitational again He said he liked how well I handled the other one I said that I probably could Hopefully my schedule will work out He said "you're awesome, genuinely" 🙂 That was especially nice coming from him Thinking about joining Osie's game on FoL Seems kind of like a mini-mash Might not require too much investment, which I wouldn't have time for Though could have tons of posts Almost done reading The Sword of Kaigen Found time to meditate today Really need to do this more often Sometimes try at night, but usually feel too sleepy Scruffy contacted me today Should contact Miach soon

Not feeling so well lately Kind of frustrated with multiple things Feeling my anger rise easily Also feeling a bit weird physically Not exactly sick or anything Just kind of tired I guess SBPC game working out fairly well so far Considering whether to try playing single-player PC game Been hearing about Stellaris a lot Also maybe rogue-like games Started watching anime called Bofuri Kind of cute Not sure if I mentioned this in a previous post, but came up with idea for Emoji Charades game Players can only use emoji on the forums to describe a phrase to their teammate Probably going to use movie titles Also considered doing a story version Players have to tell a story with emoji and see if someone else can retell the story correctly Missing my friend Scruffy recently For some reason I'm hesitant to ask what's been happening Hope he's doing fine Found that listening to post-rock music calms me somewhat Helps me deal with turmoil inside Many people think classical music is cal

My SBPC (Sort By Post Count) game now in signups on FoL Watched Classroom of the Elite anime through episode 7 Episode 7 was slightly beyond where I had read in the light novels Might read next light novel after finishing Sword of Kaigen Cleaning up a bit here and there Feel like I'm moving too slowly Oh, talked with Arete briefly about a fanfic post Another section is a meditation on her popular understanding as the god of fighting Evil. She refers to it, herself, as being the god of defeating Evil, and She thinks it an important difference. When children are learning to swordfight, they commonly try to swing their sword at the enemy's sword, seeing that swordfighting often involves weapons clashing in this fashion and thinking that to swordfight you ought to clash your weapon in this fashion. But when you swing a sword, you should be trying to kill or cripple the other person. They might bring their sword down in your way, they might not, but a swordfight is not your aim; it

Yesterday and today somewhat relaxing Mainly because a certain person is out of town 🙂 Feels like less socializing recently Getting done with some stuff Want to plan out more Continuing to read The Sword of Kaigen Connecting more with female MC We are very different, yet also much the same in certain aspects Aspects like hiding who we are and doing what is expected from family and society Feel somewhat on the edge of despair I feel fine really However get the feeling that things could tip over easily Can't let that happen Started watching anime for Classroom of the Elite

Days going by so quickly Feel so-so Mostly tired Somewhat depressed Thought I wanted to write a lot Can't get my thoughts in order now Want to fight for something Listening to podcasts Reading Guess I stopped playing Mobile Legends Feeling somewhat lonely

Mind swirling around a lot lately Both good and bad events recently, though nothing major either way Finished reading Four Thousand Weeks: Time Management for Mortals Rated 5/5 stars Excellent book, except for perhaps the last chapter on hope Want so badly to review my notes and highlights Should search for summary notes or video Started reading  The Sword of Kaigen Helping Marshal host FM game on FoL Joined Secret Palpatine game on FoL Variant of Secret Hitler, which I've heard about often but never played yet