Bullet Journal 2021-09-18 Saturday

• So badly need to get back in touch with some friends
• Need to maybe reply to posts or just check up on people
• Avoiding this?
• Probably because I don't want to rock the boat in any way
• Things are somewhat calm
• But I do need to keep in contact with people, both online and IRL
• Big part of Stormlight series is how we need people to keep us on track
• Feel lost again
• Think I need to focus on future purpose, my quest
• Also on small steps, easy things to accomplish for now
• Feel so lazy
• Can't get myself to keep up consistently with good habits
• Keep going up and down with Chinese practice
• Same with writing
• Yesterday I stopped myself from playing new game
• Thought about playing an old MMO called Ultima Online
• Read about experiences of people who played before and still play
• Allowed myself to research servers and install the game
• Patching took very long time
• Went as far as creating a character
• Then decided I know I wouldn't want to continue playing
• Realize that I need to allow myself to try something
• Usually discover quickly if it's something I want to continue with
• Let myself get so frustrated yesterday due to last minute scheduling changes
• Needed alone time to vent and relax