Lost Whyspers

Somewhat treading water at the moment Trying to stay hopeful Other things keep coming up and trying to derail me Doing well with practicing Chinese Something like 25 day streak in Duolingo Almost to 30 days Will probably add more once I reach that Remember that I should update my music playlist Still listening to background music more often Found this artwork on Twitter by an artist named Leviathan Simple and beautiful

Why must adversity always come in groups? Then it is the little thing that finally tips us over I am aware of this and will be cautious I am doing my best to strengthen myself Artwork above by beginning artist named Linoir Can imagine a whole story behind it She is enduring pain to make herself stronger Thinking a lot about what I've gone through so far in life Helps put things into perspective

Got hit by 2 horrible problems today One was somewhat expected, but bad timing Other came as complete surprise Broken my trust in fundamental ways Want to just rage at the world, but no use What next? Just move on, become stronger

Weekend went better than I originally expected Made progress with cleaning up Other issues didn't come up Going to be worrisome week Not sure how much time I'll have available Not sure when I'll be ready for Forum Mafia again Listening to my music playlist for background music more often lately

Okay, this is much delayed. I didn't realize I hadn't even updated my music playlist last week. And now I've delayed this week. Anyway... Added these 2 songs. Amaranthe - Strong Klaus Badelt - The Black Pearl Removed these 2 songs. Charlotte Sands - Bad Day Lights - Up We Go Here's my new playlist. Amaranthe - Strong Klaus Badelt - The Black Pearl Starset - Monster Katy Perry - Roar UNSECRET x Neoni - Ignite Marcin Przybylowicz - The Mighty Jarl of Skellige (Legacy) (GWENT Soundtrack) Neoni - Never Say Die Neoni - Champion Icon For Hire - Counting on Hearts Skillet - Feel Invincible Olivia Holt - Phoenix Fireflight - Keep Fighting Ashes Remain - On My Own Icon For Hire - Too Loud Icon For Hire - Make A Move Calvin Harris & Ellie Goulding - Outside Within Temptation - Mad World Skillet - Whispers in the Dark Evanescence - Whisper Icon For Hire - Up In Flames

Wow, it skipped to Friday already Didn't get a chance to post a new music playlist on Wednesday Still planned on posting yesterday Just been extra busy last couple days Today is still kind of hectic Still keeping up with reading Reading The Great Mental Models for non-fiction Reading Victories Greater Than Death for fiction Thinking I need to change my pfp soon, but can't decide 🙂 Jotted so many thoughts for blogging Will I have time to write more? Keeping up streak with Chinese learning in Duolingo 17 days right now Oh wow, just looked back for previous music playlist and noticed I didn't even post one last week

Words are so limiting Or at least my ability with words are so limiting I feel like I can only get a small percentage of what I'm thinking down into words I feel like the words limit what I'm trying to say This is frustrating and makes me not even want to try However I know that's not a good solution Better solution would be to improve my writing Arguing with people can be so frustrating Sometimes it is so obvious that the other person isn't even considering logic of arguments So then is there a point to continue? How do I know when to keep fighting and when to just let it go? I have a personal bias towards avoiding conflict So then I worry that I'm convincing myself to let things go that I shouldn't But then I also can't help feeling that it's right to only get into conflicts that are necessary Reminds me of parts of Stormlight Archive Character and his father have opposing viewpoints on this

Listening to The Psychology Podcast Sam Harris || Free Will (Part 1) Sam Harris || Free Will (Part 2)

Finished reading Rhythm of War Fantastic book Ended up highlighting lots of passages just for the way various philosophical/moral ideas are expressed Considering reading Warbreaker next Same universe (Cosmere) Supposedly includes certain characters from Rhythm of War How long has it been since I've played FM? Feels like a long time, though I think only couple weeks Not ready yet to return Sounds like Senate guild for SINoALICE may not last much longer Heard that guild leaders getting a bit burned out with it Hope they feel renewed later

Finally reached gold league for King of Tokyo on BGA Thought I'd be stuck at silver forever Kept losing any points I gained Finally had a winning streak Almost done with Rhythm of War 94% done Amazing! Wow, found a much quicker method to do a task Feel stupid for wasting time earlier But feel clever for trying something out Now things can move along more easily May be able to complete it this weekend

They started a song competition on FoL . This is something that was brought over from POG 2+2 . I remember seeing thread titles about Walrus, but didn't really look closely at what they were about. I assumed they were some sort of trivia game like they enjoy playing over there. Anyway, we have to submit songs that fit various categories with a separate judge for each. The judges have their own preferences, but are also trying to look for something new from what they usually listen to. It's a fun idea. I spent awhile this morning deciding on songs and eventually submitted my picks. Here they are below. FoLus 1. Non-Christmas Holiday Music (Valentine's Day) Icon For Hire - Counting On Hearts (w/ Lyrics) 2. Don’t Skip the Opening No game No life OP - This Game┃Cover by Raon Lee 3. Rainy Daze SVRCINA - Meet Me On The Battlefield [Official Lyric Video] 4. Stone, Iron, and Steel Amaranthe - Digital World (Official Video) 5. Best Transition/Bridge/Interlude Linkin Park & Evane...

Started to get depressed yesterday Fought this Also fought it this morning Thinking about examining my values more systematically Writing them down Possibly thinking about moral situations Want to be prepared when situations actually come up When to fight and when to let go Think of how those I admire fight Do I have time to work on Betrayal at House on the Hill? So much yet to do Take it step by step Keep calm Maybe I need to chat with Miach again soon She's encouraging Artwork above by Guweiz Like seeing her calm, meditative expression

Currently 80% done with Rhythm of War Story touches a lot on responsibility With more power comes more responsibility Gods and heroes bear much responsibility Do I want that? Did I escape from that? But what else is there? Responsibility gives meaning Today is national holiday in Taiwan Observance of Taiwan's birthday yesterday Cooled down a lot today Finally feeling like autumn Think there's typhoon passing by to south Artwork above from Chubymi

Making progress on project SV Yesterday transferred Discord Nitro boosts from old server to new Breadbox server Brought server to level 2 Discord recently reduced boost requirements Also been adding benefits Server now has custom role icons Today fairly relaxing

Bad luck yesterday evening Some bad luck today Resolved problem though Took care of issue I'd been delaying for months Sounds like Ashra from Senate successfully took over my SINoALICE account Trinity Blood Mafia game on Mafia Colosseum finished Wolves won I got rather angry at a particular player during that game Treated me rudely by criticizing me for not catching up and posting within a few hours after I'd replaced in Already around 3000 posts by that time with complicated mechanics Also kept misconstruing my words Tunneled me to ML Mostly over this now 🙂 CRich did really well in his SK role Now trying to continue with my break from Forum Mafia Tempting to help backup Mad17 game on FoL Has needed a few backups so early Still needs backup despite having 6 players signed up as backups

Just finished S03E17 of Sword Art Online Mad17 game on FoL needing couple replacements so early Replacement list has 6 people Seems like people aren't accepting though Looks like WWA did take one spot Not sure if I'll be needed, but I'm still on break Currently 71% done with Rhythm of War Listening to more songs and music artists I previously liked Belinda Carlisle Two Steps From Hell Downloaded couple other anime movies recommended by Scruffy Violet Evergarden: The Movie (2020) Maquia: When The Promised Flower Blooms (2018) King of Tokyo finally out of beta on BGA

Oh, I had some thoughts this morning that I wanted to note, but now I forgot 😔 Maybe something to do with distractions Or with temporary lack of distractions that leave a void Need to fill that void with something good Updated my music playlist Want to continue to do that weekly Still reading Rhythm of War So so good So much to think about Tempted to join Forum Mafia game on new site Paradox Interactive Forums Perhaps I should stick with my break though Also don't like how the site doesn't allow custom avatars 🙂 Found some nice artwork from artist named Chubymi Seen a few of her pieces before

Added these 2 songs. Starset - Monster Katy Perry - Roar Removed these 2 songs. Evanescence - My Last Breath Cassadee Pope - I Am Invincible Here's my new playlist. Starset - Monster Katy Perry - Roar UNSECRET x Neoni - Ignite Marcin Przybylowicz - The Mighty Jarl of Skellige (Legacy) (GWENT Soundtrack) Neoni - Never Say Die Neoni - Champion Icon For Hire - Counting on Hearts Skillet - Feel Invincible Charlotte Sands - Bad Day Olivia Holt - Phoenix Fireflight - Keep Fighting Lights - Up We Go Ashes Remain - On My Own Icon For Hire - Too Loud Icon For Hire - Make A Move Calvin Harris & Ellie Goulding - Outside Within Temptation - Mad World Skillet - Whispers in the Dark Evanescence - Whisper Icon For Hire - Up In Flames

New problems arising in my professional work So far probably manageable Chatted with Scruffy some last night Feel kind of sad Finally replied to Senate members Couple members offered to buy or pilot my account My policy has usually been to not sell or even allow someone to pilot my account Feel connection to each of my characters, so don't want anyone touching them 🙂 Started to rethink policy since also a shame to let the investment go to waste Maybe it would be nice to let someone pilot the account Still won't sell it Sorrock going to help shepherd the account Friend of Ashra might play the account to be able to join the guild in our timeslot She still has main in another timeslot Otherwise Shinji was sweet to offer to pilot my account along with her own to help maintain it in case I return Felt good to help out FoL with the archive Answered some questions people had about what I did Chloe might be able to handle future archive based on article I sent Helps to just throw mys...

Felt like switching my profile picture again. And also felt like red again for some reason. So went with this red helmet piece from Nixeu . I don't know why it attracts me so much. There's just something both elegant and vibrant about it.

Let Chloe know about the static mirror copy of FoL http://fol.whysper.info She was excited and offered to pay me Told her no, wanted to donate to FoL anyway See if I can get around to replies today New Coup game in signups at FoL Special homebrew version called Uprising Looks like quite a number of changes compared to other custom versions Vulgard's birthday was yesterday Feeling kind of tired? Found the above artwork and curious where it came from Appears to be cover for online music album from Seventhrun Tried listening to some songs from them on Spotify, but didn't like them Seems like techno/electronic music, which I'm not a fan of But the artwork is great 🙂 Also like the name "Forbidden Weapons" 🙂

Guy on Fiverr delivered FoL mirror Looks good when viewing it locally from computer Uploading to Google Drive to see if possible to host Previous test had issues with images Hope everything works out this time Need to DM Chloe about this later Frustrating incident occurred today Project SV moving forward Continue to be impressed by artwork of WLOP , like new one above Need to get out of my cave and reply to people! Why is this so hard? Noticed that Foster deleted his Discord account Wonder why?

Finally finished reorganizing certain group of files Smaug's Lair game finished on POG 2+2 Still need to visit and comment Tempted to join Mad17 game on FoL Illwei and Vulgard joined Trying to stick to break from FM Still waiting to hear back on mirror copy of FoL Am I in better control now? Maybe Feel like I've opened a gap that needs filled soon Need to maintain good habits that have been working Need to look at steps for moving forward in developing new habits Need to maintain momentum

Getting some professional tasks done Playing less on BGA lately Not playing mobile games lately Still considering Mobile Legends Also considering GWENT Listening to podcasts Bookworm 125: Willpower Doesn’t Work by Benjamin Hardy Existential Stoic Podcast - A Field Guide to a Happy Life - with Massimo Pigliucci Bookworm 126: The Mountain is You by Brianna Wiest Bookworm 127: The Art of the Idea by John Hunt Reading Rhythm of War Slacking on practicing Chinese Still need to reply to a few people Artwork above based on Saber character added to some 2D fighter game called Melty Blood Saw an announcement about it recently Slightly tempted to play Realized I'm not that good at 2D fighter games 🙂 Plus it wasn't mobile