I feel like I'm in a sort of temporal stasis. Or like I'm trying to keep it that way and avoid having time move forward for anything. I get this way often. It's when I'm at a point where nothing major, either good or bad, is occurring and I just want to keep it that way.
I don't want to respond to messages. I don't want to do much of anything. Because I know that doing something leads to consequences. Oh, likely everything will be fine, but there's just always that chance that something happens I wasn't expecting. And then maybe it snowballs.
Though, of course, I know that doing nothing is really a choice of action as well. And it leads to its own consequences. But somehow that choice is better? Maybe because it feels like I take less responsibility for it? Perhaps. Though I also know that's not true. I'm just as responsible for inaction as action.
I have to work this out. I know this is an important step in my self development. And I somehow feel that a "solution" is in my grasp. But I can't quite get a hold of it. But it's coming. Soon.
BTW, not sure that the artwork I chose for this post has anything to do with what I just wrote. Haha. 🙂 It's a recent piece from WLOP that I somehow just love. I guess it somewhat has to do with taking time out to change things and prepare. To put on a new personality.