Lost Whyspers

FoL announcement about archiving Explained uncertainty about what company that bought ToL will do with forums People asked to help with archiving forum threads I contacted someone on Fiverr about mirroring the forum Seemed very knowledgeable and explained things well He started download process last night and said it's going well Waiting to hear back from him later today Also discussed with him about the FBR tool Couple members of Senate asked about piloting my SINoALICE account My usual policy is not to allow that I don't like to sell or lend my accounts However I'm currently considering whether to allow it in this situation Not sure how I feel about game accounts anymore Perhaps I shouldn't let them go to waste? “I want control,” she said, opening her eyes. “Not like a king or anything. I just want to be able to control it, a little. My life. I don’t want to get shoved around, by people or by fate or whatever. I just ... I want it to be me who chooses.” ― Lift in  ...

Okay, so updating my music playlist for the week. Going to remove these 2 songs. Neoni - Wonderland The Material - Life Vest Then adding these 2 songs. UNSECRET x Neoni - Ignite Marcin Przybylowicz - The Mighty Jarl of Skellige (Legacy) (GWENT Soundtrack) And here's the new list. UNSECRET x Neoni - Ignite Marcin Przybylowicz - The Mighty Jarl of Skellige (Legacy) (GWENT Soundtrack) Neoni - Never Say Die Neoni - Champion Icon For Hire - Counting on Hearts Skillet - Feel Invincible Charlotte Sands - Bad Day Cassadee Pope - I Am Invincible Olivia Holt - Phoenix Fireflight - Keep Fighting Lights - Up We Go Ashes Remain - On My Own Icon For Hire - Too Loud Icon For Hire - Make A Move Calvin Harris & Ellie Goulding - Outside Within Temptation - Mad World Skillet - Whispers in the Dark Evanescence - Whisper Evanescence - My Last Breath Icon For Hire - Up In Flames

About halfway done with Rhythm of War Excellent series that continually impresses me Reading helps me feel more alive Going to experiment with tracking Forum Mafia info in OneNote Probably use section for each game Also sections for general info on wolf and town tells Maybe section for info on players? I think OneNote allows tagging, which should be useful for cross referencing I've heard searching in OneNote is fairly good Idea based on discussions with Askthepizzaguy Also from reading his article on his SkyNet Listening to podcasts on Stoicism

Another great conversation with Askthepizzaguy (King Bowser) about Forum Mafia Recent ruling on MU about cheater No definitive evidence of cheating in our specific game, but Bowser and others seem pretty sure it happened Host of the game changed red mafia team to draw instead of loss Fortunate I vigged the player N2 🙂 Otherwise he might have ruined game for blue mafia Askthepizzaguy thanked me for this Says I got the bonus wolf 🙂 We chatted further about other theory and tools I might switch to just document for tracking notes on games instead of spreadsheet Spreadsheet too confining for tracking enough info on posts and thoughts Askthepizzaguy just uses simple document or text file Got ML'd in another game Need to wait to talk about it further May take a short break from Forum Mafia Seriously considering quitting SINoALICE again Now is probably good time Tonight I sent a message to the Senate leader Love the various helmet art pieces from Nixeu like one above

Watched episode S03E14 of Sword Art Online Temporarily put series on hold awhile ago Series continues to inspire me Want to continue watching Integrity Knights are interesting concept Make me think of Radiant Knights in Stormlight series Knights in general still fascinate me Probably for the concept of holding to an ideal Also for often being associated with following a quest Feel slightly better today Read about situation where someone is suspected of cheating in the Multiball game on MU Bowser was accusing the person I vigged N2 Apparently that person and maybe also his brother has a history of cheating Bowser thinks the red mafia team was robbed because of the cheating

Still snappish? Am I going downhill? Sometimes I have this wild thought that maybe I'm undergoing rehab Like maybe I'm in a simulation or reincarnated life Maybe I've placed myself or was forcibly placed into this situation That I need to learn how to become a better person Or maybe that I'm training myself to become ready to take a role with power I think I would do that to myself Makes sense in order to avoid becoming corrupted by power later Should I try out Mobile Legends again? Maybe it's a good release? Yesterday I finally made headway on a problem Wrote out all the various scenarios and results That helped see the bigger picture Also had thoughts that my life may be like one of those background stories for an evil character Like the movie Maleficent Where it shows how the character was once good and how they turned evil Or maybe they aren't evil but completely misunderstood and thought to be evil Sometimes people say those types of stories kind of make ev...

Find myself getting snappish with people and things Need to calm down Need to focus on good things more often Maybe I need to do something more directly related to Stoicism? Still think reading helps me Trying to keep up with practicing Chinese Morning seems to work better for this Getting slightly tempted to play Mobile Legends again Saw some recent updates They added some sort of affinity system now They reworked some old skins New artwork from WLOP above

Thought today would be horrid day Turned out not so bad Got done with couple unpleasant tasks Sent quick reply to Miach Just wanted her to know not to worry Also that I appreciate her messages Finished Multiball 19er game on MU King Bowser was amazing as wolf Alt for Askthepizzaguy He connected with me on Discord after the game He offered some links to articles he's written Offered to answer my questions about  Forum Mafia

I've been wanting to keep track of my main playlist at various points in time, so finally going to start. I have a playlist I call  Heart with the songs I mainly enjoy listening to on a daily basis. I try to keep the size to around 20 songs. It's not exactly ordered by how much I like them, though I did move some to the top that I wanted to listen to more often. Neoni - Never Say Die Neoni - Wonderland Neoni - Champion Icon For Hire - Counting on Hearts Skillet - Feel Invincible Charlotte Sands - Bad Day Cassadee Pope - I Am Invincible Olivia Holt - Phoenix Fireflight - Keep Fighting Lights - Up We Go Ashes Remain - On My Own Icon For Hire - Too Loud Icon For Hire - Make A Move Calvin Harris & Ellie Goulding - Outside Within Temptation - Mad World Skillet - Whispers in the Dark The Material - Life Vest Evanescence - Whisper Evanescence - My Last Breath Icon For Hire - Up In Flames

Back to more regular schedule Still hesitating on doing things So many books I still want to read Started working on rules for PBF version of Betrayal at House on the Hill

Pleasant conversation with Archer this morning He's taking time off from classes Talked about how each of us is trying to sort ourselves mentally Also talked about Mid-Autumn/Moon Festival that's today Talked about other East Asian lunar holidays He made an offhand comment about my pfp being nice Somehow this came as a pleasant surprise Let him know this was a nice comment Told him how profile pics are like outfits in the online world, so like he was complimenting my outfit choice 😊 Still need to reply to Miach Still considering whether to submit a game into the Misc queue on FoL Queue has been empty Aelin did make up a new game just to add something to the queue Mentioned it was similar in some aspects to my FBR game

Feel like I'm just drifting Made some progress on projects Only a little, but at least something Feeling pulled apart in many directions Miach has been trying to contact me For some reason I haven't replied yet I thought about what to say this morning I want to tell her that I really appreciate her I need people that push me to stay in touch Yet somehow I am avoiding replying? What's wrong with me?

So badly need to get back in touch with some friends Need to maybe reply to posts or just check up on people Avoiding this? Probably because I don't want to rock the boat in any way Things are somewhat calm But I do need to keep in contact with people, both online and IRL Big part of Stormlight series is how we need people to keep us on track Feel lost again Think I need to focus on future purpose, my quest Also on small steps, easy things to accomplish for now Feel so lazy Can't get myself to keep up consistently with good habits Keep going up and down with Chinese practice Same with writing Yesterday I stopped myself from playing new game Thought about playing an old MMO called Ultima Online Read about experiences of people who played before and still play Allowed myself to research servers and install the game Patching took very long time Went as far as creating a character Then decided I know I wouldn't want to continue playing Realize that I need to allow myself to tr...

Feel very good today Don't feel tired I think this is due to engaging with lots of ideas recently Listening to podcasts Brainstorming game ideas Thinking about my future Also making progress on projects Want to clean up more Need to get back to practicing Chinese Frustrated with certain person who always wants to tell people how to live

Things went pretty well yesterday Feels good listening to podcasts Gives me ideas to ponder Let's me make connections to previous ideas Current Bookworm podcast mentioned "Curse of Knowledge" Bookworm 124: Liminal Thinking by Dave Gray Curse of Knowledge refers to how your existing knowledge affects your current thinking Sometimes you need to go back to the point of view of a beginner Thought crossed my mind about how someone might put themselves in a simulation with no memory of their real life They could then experience and learn from a new perspective Could I have done that? I think I would Thinking a lot about whether to continue with SINoALICE Basically staying for the Senate guild, but is that enough? Do I really want to continue down this path? Thought crossed my mind that keeping this as a placeholder stops me from filling the spot with something else, like another game So maybe that's a good thing for now? I'm going to keep it there until I have a clearer...

Listening to podcasts again recently Bookworm 123: Procrastinate on Purpose by Rory Vaden JBP S4: E29 – Journalist or Heretic? | Bari Weiss JBP S4: E30 – Malice, or the Establishment? | Michael Malice Making Sense #238 - HOW TO BUILD A UNIVERSE Today turning out fairly good actually

Tired today, which is making me slightly depressed? Making it difficult to want to do anything much At least check lists still help Got some stuff done over weekend because of check lists Reading really does help Artwork helps as well Piece above is from Nixeu Perhaps I should just read a lot today? Pleasant discussion on MU Discord about Brandon Sanderson books Kind of nice intersection between 2 things I like Maybe I need to participate in more discussions like these?

Shocking experience yesterday While waiting in traffic, the car next to me was rear-ended I could hear the screeching of the brakes right before it happened Then I saw the car get pushed forward after it was rear-ended I've been rear-ended a couple times before, but strange to experience it third-person Couldn't help feeling relieved it didn't happen to me Trying to relax a bit today Doing better recently by writing out a check list of things to do for the day Use to do that all the time when I was younger Helped me stay organized for school

I felt like I needed to change my pfp again. I recently found this one called "Snow" by an artist simply called BM.

Man, I'm such a bad Stoic 😔 Letting my emotions have too much sway over me Need to be more Stoic More like a Jedi 🙂 Considering how to work on myself in this area Watching some inspirational videos I saved to my phone helped me recover Thinking about how much worse things could be helped Still playing SINoALICE Still uncertain whether to continue Only continuing for Senate guild Good people Want to help them have fun together Slowly getting organized more Making small steps Continued with Chinese studies Practiced characters Practiced vocabulary

New week Can I keep on track? Feel like it's possible Recently liking song called Never Say Die by Neoni Liking other songs by Neoni as well Still playing King of Tokyo on BGA Trying to get back into studying Chinese Reading a little more Rhythm of War Stuck on what to do, so just cleaned up some Felt good Saw message from IRL friend from board game group Kind message Feel bad for not contacting them anymore Not sure what to say

Feeling better today Small things improving Feel hopeful about near future Considering changes for long-term Using app to practice Chinese characters Replaced into VLDR 3 game on FoL

Oh my God! I finally got a chance to read the preview sample for  Never Say You Can't Survive: How to Get Through Hard Times by Making Up Stories . It was totally speaking to me. Then not very far in, I found out that the author is the same author who wrote Victories Greater Than Death . That's a young adult sci-fi novel I recently started reading. Now I realize that this explains the coincidence of why the book came up in my email recently. But this doesn't explain the coincidence of why I picked up a sci-fi novel that happens to be written by someone who writes about how using stories to escape from reality is a good thing. Something which I've been considering and wanting more input about. Anyway, I need to get back to other things. I just had to write something quickly before this got lost in the stream. I'm including some passages I highlighted while reading the introduction of the book. Putting any kind of story together makes you a god in your own private uni...