Lost Whyspers

Caught up some on messages with people Scruffy was surprised I was the one to message first after our pause 🙂 I did miss chatting with him Talked about some of his health issues and some games Sent message to Constantyne I think my last message about how things sometimes feel complicated between us caused him to stop chatting with me Contacted Prophylaxis They had offered to provide links to old FM tips during post-game chat They might be a good person to discuss FM with later Feel the urge to practice art Feel the urge to learn more, but also feel reluctant to start anything New leader of Senate (SINoALICE guild) DM'd Expressed appreciation for me patiently sticking with them and participating in Colo daily Said they are trying to recruit another vanguard to help Said they want to do more guild activities Couple of the leaders do seem genuine in wanting to encourage more fun in the guild Not sure what I can do to help Felt the urge to maybe design and host Discord game Upgraded m...

Signed up as replacement for the Paint Your Mafia game on FoL Originally didn't feel like joining because of the drawing mechanic Now I'm somewhat interested Also noticed they are quickly running out of replacements Need to prepare myself for the game Wanted to write more, but got busy

Again, need to praise the Bullet Journal idea Haven't written for a while, but feel guilty when I see my old Bullet Journal entries I get the urge to continue even if I'm not sure what to write Then just starting to write makes ideas flow Not sure why I haven't written for a few days Things have been relatively good Maybe I don't want to interrupt the flow by thinking too much about things Wonderful success with Project SV recently Asked Jane about FBR tool They apologized about forgetting Been extremely busy recently Will continue soon Signed up for Final Fantasy X Mafia game on MU Nieces interested in playing Coup again We played over weekend

Intended to post on recent FM games yesterday Hope to get to that later today Worn out and slightly depressed yesterday, so vegged out watching Loki Enjoyed every episode (only 6) Looking forward to what comes in the MCU People continue to be frustrating 😔 Notice I get too worked up Need to not let things bother me so much Probably partly to do with lack of sleep Also lack of satisfaction in other areas

Foster accepted my friend request Said he thought we'd moved on from chatting since it had been a while Said he felt Discord worked that way where people come and go Originally I didn't remember it being long since we'd talked I thought it had only been a day or so Went back to review my blog and saw that indeed it was at least a week or so before I even started wondering about not hearing from Foster I didn't notice he'd unfriended me until maybe a month later Good to have a blog to refresh my memory of events 😀

The 13er Vanilla WW game at POG 2+2 just started. I have to say that I already regret joining. No specific flavor had been announced ahead of time, but I definitely wasn't expecting this. The host started off with a post that bashes Abraham Lincoln and the United States by calling them genocidal monsters. I mean, I get where people are coming from when they talk about this stuff in political situations. But I don't think it is appropriate to use this in our game. I'm not sure whether I should say anything to the host about how uncomfortable this makes me feel. I might just try sticking it out for now and see how things go. This is apparently their first time hosting a game, so I don't want to spoil things for them. And I don't want to ruin the game for the other players. So I'll bear with it for now.

Fighting temptation to feel overwhelmed Trying to view things in small worlds Want to find things to eliminate Trying to focus where I can Resisting urge to play new games Saw mention of game called RimWorld Very detailed sci-fi colony sim Sim games make you feel like you are accomplishing a lot Reading less lately Feel need to read more again Keep finding books I want to read Considering game for SINoALICE guild to play over Discord Simulate smaller version of Colosseum from mobile game Thought perhaps this could help make guild feel closer Leader had tried Hunger Games, but game completely automated Need something with player interaction

Signed up on Patreon for FoL Want to get the custom title Universal Backup 😀 Unfortunately it also colors my name and adds a crown flair That's going to stand out too much 😀 Alice's Castle Desolation game starting today

Got Snow White International in SINoALICE So beautiful with that parasol Looking forward to switching to her Alice's Castle Desolation filled Should be starting soon Alice hasn't been feeling well lately, so not starting right away My friend S will be heading to US next year Didn't realize he was US citizen by birth Wish him best of luck Katze nominated me for Community MVP at FoL Feel both elated and guilty Elated for the surprise recognition Guilty for not putting forth my best in recent game Guilty for also feeling more distant from FoL recently Inspires me to want to do better both at FoL and other areas Realize that I do respond to awards and other signs of appreciation Perhaps should write more about this in separate post

I felt like switching my profile pic again. Going with a red head this time. 😀 Probably because I've been reading about Shallan in Rhythm of War . This is a 3D rendering by artist Yuditya Afandi of a character named Faye created by artist Ross Tran .

Read recent article about small world concept Based on Joe Rogan interview with Navy SEAL Basically idea of only thinking about how to get over next hurdle So for SEAL Hell Week, don't think about how you are going to survive whole week Think instead about just surviving next 6 hours or even next hour Heard this in terms of patients with terminal illnesses too Just take it one day at a time Even though I've heard these concepts before, continually reading new articles about them helps remind me Good to continually read and listen to podcasts that cycle among same ideas Can't always find new ideas, so revisiting old ones on regular basis also good Haven't kept up with Arknights lately

Joined Alice's Castle Desolation game at FoL Watched The Tomorrow War Rate it 4 stars Enjoyable and somewhat touching at times, though nothing astounding Want to watch the new Loki TV series sometime Should ask Jane about the FBR tool soon Why am I struggling to write again?

Finished reading Dawnshard Rated it 5 stars Awesome shorter novel Love the character Rysn Continuing with Rhythm of War Replaced into Warrior Cats game on FoL

Need to get back to basics with bullet journaling Wanted to write more about things I read or listened to recently Finished reading Oathbringer Rated it 5 stars Highlighted so much in book Loved all the characters and their situations Felt connected in various ways Continuing with next book Dawnshard Barely playing mobile games recently Doing minimum to keep up with SINoALICE and Arknights Tempted to play Mobile Legends again

It's D2 for the SFoL 67 game at FoL . D1 came and went okay. There was some crazy stuff involving GGhana bleeding Gorta. Overall, though, tt wasn't as bad as other D1s I've been involved in. 😀  For D2, GGhana got exposed for lying too much about claims. He's likely a neutral or wolf. ATNoName, who replaced into the King slot, started a Grand Trial on GGhana. There was argument back and forth about whether to execute him now or let the Duke jail him overnight and kill him then. We finally settled on doing that and have now continued the day looking for who to execute. The top wagon is Coconuts, who is my top SR. I'm kind of in a spot where I don't want to expose myself too much and get killed overnight. I think my role can be very useful. So I think it's good for me to stay in the PoE. I just hope no one tries to push for me towards the end of the day when I won't be able to do much. I would have to claim at that point, which will likely get me killed. I...