Lost Whyspers

Where do I belong? Been wondering if I really belong with FoL group Don't feel like I belong anywhere Should I seek out another group online somewhere? Realize it takes awhile to establish roots with any group Also can never truly completely belong with any group Always will be differences that make a person feel apart Stopped playing Mobile Legends recently Wish I could play Lost Ark

Ukraine situation is sad to witness People have been warning me about Taiwan's situation is now more dangerous Can nothing be done to stop this madness? Continuing to read Four Thousand Weeks Excellent book Find myself highlighting so much Changing my outlook on life Going to take another break from Forum Mafia Might not play for next 6 months Need to reply to lots of messages yet

Noticed that things keep hitting me from multiple angles to discourage me Like even current events in news Then political discussions I read Then just opinions people express that don't seem thought out Then little problems here and there in daily life Like things breaking Things causing problems So much all conspiring to take me out Also the constant input even if "good for me" Working on adding user avatars to posts on FoL Archive Keeping track of post counts Might put together guessing game

Up and down, up and down Finished reading  Children of the Nameless Rated 4/5 stars This is a good tale. Felt too short. Not really the same world-building from Sanderson I'm use to since I think he had to fit things into the backstory from the MtG universe. Still interesting though and if like to see a sequel. Reading  Four Thousand Weeks: Time Management for Mortals Excellent and thought-provoking so far Eager to keep reading Trying to apply this to some extent to my life Difficult Want to write much more about this Been highlighting a lot

Feel like I'm on the cusp of falling into despair again If pause and think, realize this is absurd Not enough to despair about Big part is probably how tired I am Also, just suddenly received unexpected demands Still have lots of other demands on my time Delaying tasks All building up to dangerous levels Up to this point, relatively proud of how I've been handling emotions Successful at stopping myself from dwelling too much on things I can't do much about Making myself move forward with action when doubting myself Feeling in the flow Feeling okay about skipping things temporarily Feeling optimistic about future Meditation has helped Reading has helped Podcasts have helped Music has helped Socializing has helped

Continuing to develop idea of personal RPG sheet Meditating today was helpful Need to continue with this Still reading Children of the Nameless Getting more interesting Thinking about my future

Lots to get done this week Working on preparing better Feeling so old as I get closer and closer to 40 Feel like I'm running out of time Joined FM game on FoL Been feeling like joining a game for awhile Not many backups needed recently Thought I should join this game based on an anime Didn't think any other upcoming ones looked as enjoyable Set up custom search engine for FoL Archive through Yandex FoL Search Guy on Fiverr had mentioned Yandex So far Yandex indexing pages better than Google Easier settings for customizing things Also tried Bing search console again Looks like it might work better than before Watched Chrissy from Against The Current on Twitch some more chrissyofficial She started playing Lost Ark, which released recently Really wish I could play that MMO Avoiding doing so since I know it would require lots of time